tired of compliancy

how can you have so much and still feel so hungry for more. will anything make you happy? is there anything more you can demand from the world?

internally entertained or externally entertained? does someone or something external to you need to provide you with content or can you create that content yourself? are you a consumer or a creator?

don't like to consumer unless it enables creation somehow. consumption without creation seems pointless?

i like theory crafting

untitled goose and acessibility

let's get polling app, task management app

for the future automation, crm, marketing (mailchimp), knowledge accumulation

infinite vs non-infinite entities

reducing something that you see as infinite makes it more interesting, more exciting and gives you a feeling that you're starting to slowly understanding something amazing and incredible.

reducing something that you see as non-infinite "takes the magic away"

the idea of fairness

crowdfunded event app. people throw out event ideas, dates, and times. people can browse and mark themselves as going to events that they're excited about. if the event confirms, then the event is on!

I'm going to break my bones trying

there's a perspective that's that if everyone cleans up after themselves, then syz will be clean. however, there are factors that contribute to uncleanliness besides this. additionally, people don't reliably clean up after themselves. we need two different efforts. the first effort is to pick up all the uncleanliness that isn't covered by people cleaning up after themselves. the second effort is to decrease how much of that effort there is a third effort that is indirectly related to cleaning is dealing with people individual frustrations at cleaning up after others.

Been thinking about two types of organizational/relationship stress. There’s one type of stress that’s pretty well known that i would call “Quality Stress” this refers to the stress that comes from not having something be of a particular quality. You work on something and it’s not quite as good as you wanted or as flashy as you wanted or as popular as you wanted. 

the other type of stress i would call "fairness stress". This type of stress isn't defined by any particular quality, but by the amount of effort that you feel like you put into something compared to other people. You feel like you're putting in more work than everyone else and you feel like that's not fair. You feel like other people are taking advantage of the fact that you're more willing to put more effort in, or the fact that you have more time to put the effort in, or the fact that you care more. 

in general, i definitely like to think that i have fairly decent coping mechanisms for both of these things, but i was definitely having a lot of frustration with fairness stress leading up to the this show on thurs and throughout the past few months.

there's a lot of questions there that i think are actually fairly difficult questions. if i feel like i put in way more effort than other people/the other person, what's the right thing for me to do? is it ok or good for me to pressure other people into putting more effort into the things i care about, regardless of whether or not they care about it? Should this be something that i try and deal with in my own head? should i talk to them about it and cut them out if they don't improve?

i think a common response to this is going to be that it depends on the specifics of the situation. different people are going to have different boundaries and different things that they're willing to compromise. At the end of the day, you have to know yourself and know what you want from other people and you have to make that clear to others. If they're not able to provide that, then you have to figure out what compromise you're ok with.

Another common thing is feeling like an event was going to be somehow revolutionary for you and it just wasn't. You had your hopes way too high for how emotionally impacted you would be by something

feeling like someone knows you is good when they do something for you correctly, and feels bad when they do something incorrectly. this could be them being wrong, but also it could be them being right in a way that you don't like.

independent software firm focused on making money off of small-scale (less than 1000), quickly-prototyped applications. The goal is to be spinning up new ideas and new applications all the time and to have a comfortable living salary based off that. the end game of all the products is selling the product to someone else, whether it's for people to use on their own machines or whether it's selling the code for other people to grow and develop into its own company. 

why do people do this thing where they're like oh, let's go to first fridays together, we haven't hung out in so long and then they go to first fridays and they just spend the whole time talking and catching up and not interacting with first fridays at all.

why are people bad at just being like "hey, let's just hang out and talk and catch up"

the main appeal of a bar is paying money so that no one has to do any work in hosting.

critique or affirmation

a pervasive feeling that people don't care about the same things you care about. a similar feeling that people aren't able to do the things you can do.

thinking about getting to a point where you can write code more quickly than you can ship it safely.

fundamentally, do you want to be around people with similar taste?

new drum machine format where different velocities correspond to one of a number of different drum samples

should maybe start using trello more often

i don't want to make anyone else feel bad. i just want to stop feeling bad.

make a music playlist every month and send it out to people and get people to vote on the songs.

why are there so many more boring people in adulthood

chat app where a bunch of people join and they're trying to figure out who everyone else is.

a body is a curse

i die every moment

people are the best way of drawing in people

house party vibe vs public event vibe: is the appeal the person or people involved or is the appeal the activity that's going on?

a style of art where magic or fantastical elements are used to describe the internal feelings of ordinary events. examples: nichijou, scott pilgrim. i guess you would call them visual metaphors, a tool rather than a style, but i guess there's a particular stylistic metaphor. framing and composition

money is ego is victory is justice

critique club

event crowd control

when you get too close to people and see them everyday, you don't have an opportunity to see how they're doing long term

i don't like authoritarian mindsets. mindsets that assume that the people in charge know what they're doing.

web videos - might be a good way to churn out ideas that are more difficult to explain with the written word.

a person's shadow or echo

experience hashes

video essay ideas

omni instrument

syz identity

relationship terms

nothing a person does that isn't changing a system or creating a system matters

people can create and change systems within themselves.

aren't you tired of the way the world is? don't you want something new

there are many things that someone has to do, but only a few people have to do and it's unfair to expect or ask anyone to do.

how long will you just do the same thing

imagined conversations

event game

how to stand out

entropic creation

rubber duck therapy

what do i want?


invisible door game using mazes as a metaphor with conversation sections?

this is fine, but it's not me

question/answer theory of good story telling. question/answer format of good game design? you tend to play a game with this question of "what can i do"

it's hard for me to understand the perspective of people who haven't optimized for their own happiness, or can't see what they want beyond what they want in the moment.

we can do better

is the world enough for you?

one of the things i think is important is to always see yourself as someone with the seeds to be a completely different person.

every setting in your brain has a knob

maybe it's valuable for syz to be right next to some core group

everything that's real can be validated in multiple ways

enhanced baseline cognitive load as a result of cognitive disassociation

invisible door

persistence of vision display

there's an unspoken part to interactions which is that reactions to things are automatically coded yes or no, regardless of the content. what makes you be like "come on" versus "oh it's not that bad" when someone says something that's not great. what makes you excited to agree with someone vs think that what they're saying is boring and trite?

natural curiosity

community engineering

Some sense that you share a similar context to others is special

artist/creator mixer?

event kickstarter?

secret party

basic rules


loss aversion

there are better ways to try

creative templating language

relativity reference frames for decisions

social questions

meta rank

how to have good conversation and enjoy it more

art show applications

personal variance

syzygy needs an alex

syzygy members gotta learn how to create space

syz invite list

we should host more events??? maybe working memberships should incorporate hosting events.

let's experiment with how little we need in order to do an art show

virtual friend

wall plotter

the states and moods that make people defensive

death of the ego as cyclical suicide

can you remove all the things designed to protect your ego and still be a functioning human?

people have a strong idea of what is their community and have a VERY hard time reaching out of their community

levels of community

assumptions necessary for automating thought flows

immediate feedback is important for interest and art


all things have an infinite number of good attributes and an infinite number of bad attributes

not all attributes contribute to positive and negative feedback loops

conflict between "it's cool that you did everything yourself" and "ughh doing anything takes so much work"

easy example: screenprinting is cool to do yourself, BUT it's a huge hassle to do which prevents you from doing it. outsourcing tshirt creation and actually getting a result from it is better than screenprinting eventually

mathematical modeling tendancies

fake words

vibe check value

live narrator project

plain language

meta is what people think about something that have 0 bias. when you ask a friend about a concept, there's bias there - that friend wants to make you feel good. even when you ask someone personally about an idea or concept, there's a bias - they don't want to make the conversation awkward

finding people with similar mental operating systems, maybe highly improbable

feelings of difference or sameness are manufacturable. all combinations of things have an infinite number of similarities and differences. we arbitrarily instincitively choose which things are important 

a difference in perspective that i've noticed between the way that i think and the way that other people think is in seeing things as primarily individualistic or primarily systematic. This perspective doesn't connect to just people, but also events or actions.

axioms of life:

naturally, people like making other people happy and people dislike making other people sad. only hurt causes people to hurt others

why aren't people curious about what could make them happier

i just want

happiness comes from people similar to you. goodness comes from people different than you

syz lessons


self awareness test

joke formats

peer groups

mixing and mastering doubleblind test

the burden of justification in conversation

real talk


internet club

??? is really important to knowing yourself!

new gambling

people should be comfortable enough that they're willing to say things that are stupid

thinking about putting our expectations on other people. the default of modern day is definitely to let everyone be or do whatever they want and just slowly phase them out of your life if that doesn't line up, but isn't it better to expect more of people? to spend time with people and then let them know what you want from them?

sf art galleries

invite only social network



advanced specialization or generalized mediocrity


connection between dissonance and negative feedback loops

hunter mentality

relationship between age, stability, decreased risk taking, decay

conflict between constant progress and selflove

when you depend on something strongly, it becomes harder to criticize. i see a lot of people who strongly believe in the power of technology get more and more upset by technology being bad, but a lot of people don't realize that there are systems outside of technology designed to fix technology's problems.

higher order communication as a signal for the closeness of a community

short guide on how to engage with me

casual conversation

single dependancies

power distance

high quality interactions are difficult without getting to know someone for a while

his terrible swift sword

in everyone you know, strive to find something that they are better than you at

consider a giant living among ants. The slightest movement of the giant can destroy the homes of a thousand ants. as such, every ant is aware of even the smallest action of a giant, yet there is no reason for a giant to know anything about even a million ants.

consider how ignorant a giant must be compared to an ant. The ant knows of many worlds besides its own, but the giant, having no predators or anything that can hurt it, has no pressure to be aware of anything.

is it better to be a giant or an ant? both, or either, when it suits you. don't be fooled into thinking that anyone is one or the other. everyone is both at all times.

deep dive into different burning man principlestw

life deck game

puzzle conversation game

photography scavenger hunts/bingo

questions that get people to be closer to one another

How to make people deeply curious about other people's perspectives

email leads vs FRIENDSHIP

things that have only one reason to happen don't happen


cumulative experiences

best simple burn thing